The Story of Nurul,Aishah,Cha2,AkaZukii

why can't life be much easier than this? no complications, no agonies, no worries...just pleasant....everyday, but we would not call that life now would we?

Monday, September 04, 2006

salaams...

it's now 4.27 am and i'm still wide awake. just had me bath at 3 am..baru refreshing. actually, i can't seem to sleep nowadays...which could be problematic once my classes resume back to normal..for now, tis ok as it's still holidays for me. although i slept late yesterday, i woke up really early today..and amazingly, after much procrastination, i managed to realised my dream of having to jog in the morning! hehe...baru la sekali. but still i felt good. as i can't longer shut me eyes, i decided to have a jog in the nearest park near me house. surprisingly, when i told me mom about it, she wanted to tag along..which was a good thing not only for her, but for me as well...at least i'm not all alone.

but being me, i just had a brief 30 mins jog...and already i was sweating and puffing..darn it! seriously, i am no longer fit like i used to be in me school days....although i was never really a sprinter or anything like that, at least i did some sports...but now..panchiit! anyways, was really happy to see that me mom could have some time off exercising etc...but the only thing that bugged me was the intention given by some of the joggers/park-strollers....i'm not sure if they empathized me mom's condition (she's a stroke patient) or just plain nosy bunch of people. but there was one dude that was quite scary...no...more like a pervert or some kind. i don't want to sound 'perasan' but he was eyeing me and me mom...and when i do catch his eyes watching us, he would grinned like a pervert...yuck! memang menggelikan bulu tengkok aku hoho.

#japanese peeps-reunited
on a much happier and less disgusting happenings that took place in my life today, was the meeting of me one bunyko daigaku no tomodachi desu; risa onodera chan! and not only her, i got to meet me gaijin no tomodachi, the kawaii sofia and erin chan!! am always glad to see them both. and of course, with risa chan...japanese peeps reunited! i could still vividly remembers the 1st time i met risa, when i went to the international office, and she was introduced to me by suwa san. being the ryogakusei of the dai; i was getting all the intention that i can possibly get and any gakusei that steps in the office will be introduced to me if i'm there of course! anyways, from then, i became friends with risa chan, although it was quite difficult to communicate with her as her english isn't that good just like my nihongo is; but we managed to get along just fine.

she was one of the many bunkyo girls that i'm close with...and she was very kind to me. even to the extent of inviting me to her modest apartment which is nearby the dai. tapi aku ni jahat sikit i guess, as i have too many choices..so aku meng'belakang'kan budak yang baik ni kadang2..evil me. aisha wa warui desu. anyways, one incident that i will never forgive myself happened between risa and i...and that in a way keeps us apart even more..until now..i've 'cleanse' my sins with her and said my apologies which fortunately was accepted by risa. risa chan, arigato! about the 'thang' hontou ni gomen nasai. huhu. but tis wasn't my fault...it was "her" fault and i was to the one who had to take the blame. ..simply because she knew me better than she knew the 'culprit'..ok..enuff dissing others.

insyaAllah, one fine day, nihon de aimasho.. atashi nihon ni ikitai!! huhu..demo itsuka? ima okane ga arimasen, dakkara zannen desu. everytime the lil devil in me thinks of pissing off the other me for wasting me time in japan last 2 years; i'd take a look at pictures like this and made me realised how stupid i am to even think that. i was chosen to be the ryogakusei from the many oblivion uitmians; and was rated as 1st candidate to represents uitm among 9 other chichas...Allah granted me this dream...a dream that i have since 'mero-attack' was the hit tv series in mareshia. :p I AM LUCKY! I AM LUCKY! despite everything...despite everyone and anyone who thinks otherwise...true, in exchange for this one dream, i have to extand me studies...i have to bid goodbye to my amazing classmates/groupmates that i knew since me first day in uitm and holds dearly to my heart...i have lived through the infamous quote of 'no pain, no gain'. and insyaAllah just a few months to go before all of my frustration ends.


petite and kawaii erin chan! one of the lucky UPMians that made it to be ryogakusei just like me....but unlike uitm, upm's exchange program was more organized and CIVILIZED! **gruntss** stoop it aishah, inhale........and exhale **I AM LUCKY! I AM LUCKY! ** but erin chan was luckier than me, kimi ga sakura wa mita! luckkkkky gal. i'm glad that i took sufi's advised back then and went for 'berbuka puasa' event at malaysian embassy in shibuya, tokyo...the place where i met erin chan and the rest. the 1st time i saw her, she reminded me of me one very close cousin...she looked the same, she acted the same, she even has the same height as my dear cousin which weirdly enough also has the same nick name>ERIN! yikes! bet you never knew about this kan erin? hehehe, i have always long to tell you this lil secret of mine about you...but nver got the chance..so there. again because of nippon; i lived to see another infamous quote,"pelanduk 2 serupa"at play...

seen here with sofia chan. if meeting erin was during ramadhan, i'm truly glad i met sofia here during EID!! sofia here is the epitome of bubbly, fun and easy-going person. although that EID none of us have our immediate family by our sides, we had each other, and braved through what usually would be very happening EID...in a foreign land. but still that year's EID was really a blast!!!! we still had a jolly time, "beraya" visiting from one aprtment to another....filling our tummies with mareshia no ryori...although i didn't know either one of the host, 'menebal' kan muka...ikut sempai like sofia...just simply having fun! beraya di perantuan....that year was my 1st eid far away from home...far away from my beloved family...and it was people like sofia that ended up to be 'family'...we stick together that eid and became friends eversince. and thanks to sofia, she was kind to give an extra helping hands both to rina and i during our 7 magical months in japan. and although no 'duit raya' that year, we had a blast!! selamba katak jeks beraya dalam bandaraya tokyo...strolling around shibuya yang sungguh happening di tokyo and hip; proudly clad in our traditional clothes and mind you it was aki season or autumn...thus was quite cold...pakai kain jalan-jalan....hehe "berangin" jeks! took purikura with the rest and again i lived through another infamous malay quote, "jangan over suka2 sangat kelak berduka" haha...the makudonorodo incident is still remembered..vividly! was really A HAPPENING EID!!!! natsukashiii ne arghhh..**melancholy**


# hatred keeps rooting up inside
i know i shouldn't be saying this, but i am only human...i can't help it. i trust nobody, i favors nobody..i dislike everybody! hoho...ok the last sentence is really an exaggerated facts...i don't dislike everybody...but none definitely from atashi no dokyusei!somehow i've always known this feelings will finds its way in me...aku sememangnya 'was-was' with one individual and now it is clear kanojo wa is really annoying and bigheaded! who the hell is kanojo wa thinks kanojo wa is?? i guess it's always natural for humans to act like that. actually malas nak layan org sperti kanojo ni...ingat diri terlalu bagus but the truth is only empty cans. vain inside out. the only admirer this dude has is 'the shujin'. at least if the other dude is vain, i can still tolerate it..because the other dude has a "certified" reason to be vain, as annoying as that is. thus my feelings towards that other dude is merely out of personal reasons..but aku meng'selamba'kan diri..as i said, as much as the truth hurts, the other dude does have a "certified" reasons to be 'vain' so i've got no point for that.

but this kanojo really starts to get on my nerves....for many reasons really..that i won't be discussing out here. diam tak bererti kalah! although only those with idiotic minds would think that way. i've decided and promised myself to not make that much of a noise...as i am ....a newbies to the group...well at least in a way. so let them talk, so let the kanojo rules...let kanojo have its way.. for patience is a virtue and i just have to be patience in dealing with ppl like kanojo. bila je rasa hatred keluar menerjah diri aku ini, i keep telling myself to cool it off, i can't act emotional and irrationale...and be patience as all of this stupido drama will end another 3 months or so and i will never see nor meet this kanojo unesscessarily anymore. .

truly..it is because reasons like this..petty things like this, unsignificant ppl like kanojo, makes me feel i've wasted my time extanding my studies and having to make-do with minna. especially kanojo.and day by day, kanojo's head keep getting bigger and uglier! yikes..nak je i shout it out and aloud to kanojo's face what SIGNIFICANT things really did kanojo ever made that lead kanojo to believe kanojo wa daiKANOJO?!! that kanojo superb contributor to the group?? i don't ask much, just name me one FUCKING thing! nada! really...gosh i am pissed. i have had enough of kanojo's ways. except with the petty facts that kanojo does have a jozu eigo...of which kanojo praise all too much to kanojoself.

i am tired. i am tired with all this shits. and just for the record, i already close deals with ppl that can bring meanings to my already pathetic groupworks. but it's things like this, buat aku malaihhh nak layan...why bring headaches to myself?? why go extra-miles and waste me phone bills getting all of this done, when in the end this kanojo wants to eat up all the credits?? praising oneself about just how great and HUGE kanojo's tiny head is?? empty cans giler. thus, aku MALAIH. takpela zahan, takpela pian, takpela aunty....thank you though for the willingness to co-operate with bunch of unprofessionals. next stop: nak tgk berapa besar KANOJO's head has grown during this one week holidays......i wonder? not surprising if it's as big as KLCC. hoho.

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