The Story of Nurul,Aishah,Cha2,AkaZukii

why can't life be much easier than this? no complications, no agonies, no worries...just pleasant....everyday, but we would not call that life now would we?

Tuesday, April 11, 2006

minna sama...happy MAULIDUR RASUL sallallah 'alahi wassalam! today's the birthday of the great Prophet Muhammad SAW.

what good deeds have i done today? unfortunately not much i guess...except spending quality time with me mom which made me feel really good. gosh, i never knew i really love my mother that much until now...when she's sick and needed attention and care, i feel deep love for her. i kept thinking about her...wishing her to be well like she used to be...missing her naggin me...missing her cookings..missing her jollyself...and when i think about these things...i can't stop thinking about the inevitable lost that all of us will eventually have to face in our lives...death..for that is certain."kullun nafsin za ikatul maut"...loosely translated as " every living things will eventually die"

i kept thinking about that...and i can't imagine how my life will be...too much sorrow...too agonizing to bear...and with the current situation in my family, my mother is the reason why i am still having a place to stay..she's the soul that every single person that's living in this forsaken house depending upon..and if she's taken away, how am i supposed to live my life then??how unfair life is treating me now...i feel 'betrayed'...i'm so afraid that i will soon lost faith in life...where did all the good deeds that my parents and i have done to be awarded in this life?? why are we keep having obstacles after obstacles..making this short life seems even shorter...why do i feel i slowly suffocating when all that is around me is miles of space? i'm getting tired...gettin tired believing that we will all be awarded if we are righteous enough..gosh, don't so i sound soo depressed?? sometimes when i drive back home late from work, flooring the pedestal and smashing the car to the road's divider seems like a good idea. END IT ALL NOW i say..no more agonies, no more worries, no more nightmares, no more headaches, no more sufferings...no more woes...no more pain...when do all of this misery ends?????? when???when???itsuka??

6 Comments:

At 11:19 PM, Anonymous abdel, said...

you are wonderful of faith, don't loss your fath, be strong, smile for this life and life will smile to you
Bravo, no don't worry about the end of the life so much, you are right ''KULU NAFSIN DAIKATOU EL MAOUT''
Salam ALAIKOUM
Abdel

 
At 11:19 PM, Anonymous abdel, said...

you are wonderful of faith, don't loss your fath, be strong, smile for this life and life will smile to you
Bravo, no don't worry about the end of the life so much, you are right ''KULU NAFSIN DAIKATOU EL MAOUT''
Salam ALAIKOUM
Abdel

 
At 11:19 PM, Anonymous abdel, said...

you are wonderful of faith, don't loss your fath, be strong, smile for this life and life will smile to you
Bravo, no don't worry about the end of the life so much, you are right ''KULU NAFSIN DAIKATOU EL MAOUT''
Salam ALAIKOUM
Abdel

 
At 11:21 PM, Anonymous abdel, said...

you are wonderful of faith, don't loss your fath, be strong, smile for this life and life will smile to you
Bravo, no more worries about the end of the life so much, you are right ''KULU NAFSIN DAIKATOU EL MAOUT''
Salam ALAIKOUM
Abdel

 
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